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I dont know how other people think... I really suffer when the digital clock shows me it is 5.30pm Within 30 minutes what should I do? Faking till boss knows im doing something? Really hate 9-6pm working hour. I finish all of my stuff, can i just go home at 5pm? I know this is not appropriate I know im suffered at office I know I cant stop the gossips from other people I know. I stop and wait. Waiting for my secret angel, wanting it helps me to overcome these annoying moment.   

You know when you are stuck with unknown, the first reaction is to find out who is same with you. So am I, I googled the words "Bipolar" and I found several celebrities who have the same disorder with me. From all the list, the one who make me surprise is Demi Lovato. Luckily, in OCT she filmed a documentary which entitled as Stay Strong. During the interviews, she said the more you be transparent, the more you can be yourself. It make sense. Im not as brave as her. But I really like her including her looks and personality. I like her because she knows how to connect with people, she is a caring and kind person. I agree that being a caring person is not a desired trait that people want. This is because he/she may face a bunch of disappointments throughout his/her life. If one can choose his personality, he will want to eliminate being a soft-hearted person to protect himself. Ya. I like her today. Because she chooses to be a kind person after she has been through al...

I duno how to tell my best friends. I think they dont care anymore since I ald told them many stories when I tot im a depression patient. This time I din tell many friends like my previous time. Life is funny, Im funny. Its useless, when I think Im ruining my life.

" After being diagnosed as a bipolar disorder patient on 30th October 2018 by Dr Wee from Island hospital, my mood is even not stable.", a sentence from one of the diaries. Yes, im a patient, until now I still cannot accept it. I bought the medicine from psychiatrist, what he called it as mood stabiliser, but I havent yet used it once. My life is messy. I duno what should I do after that. I haven yet told my parents because they are just stop worrying about me because they think that im recovered from depression. Back to hospital. Doctor said im bipolar 2, I asked, "why I get diagnosed for two time?". He said my bipolar depression has the same symptom with unidepression. Okay fine. Lets die with bipolar. #evenlazytowritemyfeeling

最重要的功课应该是如何减少自己对自己的碎碎念吧 不懂你我是否一样，明明是一件简单的事， 心理的解剖是夸张到不行 例子： 表面: 这个人看起来很冷漠 心理剖析：他很讨厌我，我应该是一个很讨人厌的人吧？为何连一个不是很认识我的人会讨 厌我？我做错了什么？我是不是一直做错事情？我为何那么无能？为何我就是不能稍微做些对社会有贡献的事情？到底我有什么优点？我该不会是什么优点都没有吧？是不是只有我一个人没有优点？。。。。。。。。 对于这个人的小小眼神，衍生出来的自我厌恶感未免太多了吧？ 最怕的应该是这个： 表面：好不容易你和这位冷漠的人混熟了，你也没有什么所谓混不好的人际关系，但是突然    这位人某天又对你冷漠 心理剖析：我又怎么了？到底我需要做多少他才会对我好？为何都是我在努力的善待别人，    而别人好像也不需要这么做？这是不是我的命运？这是不是我一辈子和人类之间打不开，戳不破的膜？。。。。。。（太多了，打不完字） 就这些碎碎念。 减低吧。

差点儿 我就找不回了自己， 那情绪的漩涡，把我给卷入了 再次，我感受到一个人在荒岛的感觉 那感觉是多么的熟悉 朋友与朋友之间 只会聊些表面的事情 为了逃避那不舒服的压力与障碍 对，我是活在人群中，但我不舒服，真心想要找一个可以聊看不见的事情，想法，感受 差点儿，为了生活我忘了自己 情绪能给我开心的感觉，相同的，情绪也可以让我尝试绝望的感觉 往往我没发现到，每个事情，就连情绪，也是有正反面效果 语言也是，说出来的话往往会狠狠的鞭打回自己 我无法晓得，当下的我 应该想些，说些，做些什么 好让以前的我不后悔？ 还是，我应该学习， 如何不后悔？ 对吧，这个才是好的技巧。 反正，后悔了，我也不能干嘛。 所以，我其实也不懂 反正慢慢走着，我就明白我该干嘛了对吧？ 差点儿，我忘记了， 人生是拿来玩的， 认真你就输了， 如果人生就是一场游戏， 我们也不必烦恼， 因为我们可以一直replay, 但人生不是一场游戏， 我们不能一直replay,但 可以一直restart. 一直restart，知道你满意为止。 因为成不成功其实也没什么， 但为了满足你对自己的自我要求， 成功可能需要被达成了。 差点儿，我们忘了，我们可以restart. 献给和我一样，迷茫，不迷茫，后又迷茫的你 献给反反复复的人生 #写完文章我又获得了奇葩力量。 vivien

Hi, my main goal of 2018 is to be an influencer in mental health field. For me, it's very important to practice self-love in our entire life. No matter how good you do, there are always critics on you, maybe it's from your own self-talk or from the outside world.  From the chaos of the emotion, I learned, if we want to be ourselves, means to say to chase our dream or do whatever you want, we must embed a very strong antivirus. For human body, if you want to prevent a disease, you can take the vaccine injection. But for our mental state, how can we prevent the negativity from outside or inside? The answer will be vary from people to people. Some people think that they will ignore or reject the negativity. These kind of people will try to push themselves to a certain level such as become a superbee (very hardworking style) or hit the goals in a short time, never rest. But, for me, its totally unnatural. If our level is that low, means to say we are depressed, sad...